The weight of waiting.....

It's 4th of July. We really thought we would be holding our little "firecracker" by now. In the 5 weeks or so since our last blog post, not much has happened. The birth families we mentioned last post have chosen families. I suppose those babies were not the babies God has intended for our family. We have not received any new news from the agency. I spoke with them last week to see if there was anything we should do such as updating our profiles or change our pictures, etc. We were told everything looked great and they they are working with several new birth moms and are in the process of collecting their paperwork, prenatal care info, etc. So, maybe, hopefully, wishfully, faithfully, one of these families will be the one we are waiting on.


Jeff and I are both losing steam. We are tired of waiting. I know, that is not the right attitude. Some days are better than others. Some days I hardly think of adoption or waiting or nursery decorating or baby names at all. But other days.....those are the tough times. The days when we are disappointed because the phone has not rung, we have not been chosen, and there is no end in sight for this season of waiting.


At the beginning of the year, we said, Please Lord let it be by Easter. Please let it be by Mother's Day. Please let it be by Father's Day. Please let it be by Fourth of July and so on.


We are more than half way through this year. We have family vacation coming up next week, and we were so so so praying that baby would be here, that we would never have to spend another family vacation without our baby.


Oh Lord I want you to help. While I am waiting, I want you to help me. Help us see that You are neither late nor early. Your timing is always perfect.